Heaven Knows

the constant irritating shit i get fr that colleague of mine. its driving me crazy.

i miss him. tho he has 'graduated', he's gettin even more busy. even at nite, we barely tok long. am i suppose to be happy or sad? i longed for him esp times wen im pretty upset bout work. i noe he hasnt much time for me and its not right for me to demand so much time fr him.

sometimes, i ask myself if this r/s is going anywhere? de future seems so bleak, wif de fact that he's in army. but i cant bear to let him go, cant bear to giv up tis r/s. i hate to see him uphappy bcos im not happy. i ask myself if we being together makes him happy? if it does bring him happiness? i cant find an answer myself. i hope to hear the answer from him. :/ we have plans, yet i dunno why at times i still feel de insecurity. crap.

i dunno why im feelin so depressed today. all i hope is to be with you, in your arms again. Our feelings are true, if we are meant to be together, nothing will sets us apart.. *the promise to go thru thick and thin still remains, my precious*

Heaven Knows - by Rick Price

He's always on my mind
From the time I wake up
Till I close my eyes
He's everywhere I go
He's all I know

Though he's so far away
It just keeps getting stronger everyday
And even now he's gone
I'm still holding on
So tell me where do I start
Cause it's breaking my heart
Don't wanna let him go

Maybe my love will come
Back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our heart will
Find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and
Pray 'cause heaven knows

My friends keep tellin me
That if you really love him
You've gotta set him free
And if he returns in kind
I'll know he's mine
So tell me where do I start
Cause it's breaking my heart
Don't wanna let him go

Maybe my love will come
Back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our heart will
Find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and
Pray 'cause heaven knows

Why I live in despair'
Cause wide awake or
Dreaming
I know he's never there
And all the time I act so brave
I'm shaking inside
Why does it hurt me so

Maybe my love will come
Back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our heart will
Find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and
Pray 'cause heaven knows
Heaven knows.....2x